MY GROWN UP SISTER

Today I am writing about someone very special and close to my heart..She is not my bloud bound sister, but she means more than that to me..She is my bestie..We are best friends since she joined my school in 1st standard. Her home is my second home..Her family is my second family,,and same applies to her..I can write a book on her :D

I have mentioned "grown up" coz she is engaged now.. :)
I was really very much happy and excited about her engagement..But when I attended her engagement,I was all stunned and lost in thoughts..!
Behind flashy lights,colourful clothes and dj sounds,,I was there..watching her on stage..she was looking really beautiful!!
For the first time,I could sense real emotions behind engagement and marriages..I was wondering..when did we grow up so fast!! When her fiancee was holding her hand,I was remembering how we used to run into playground holding hands,,and after few years,,into markets..
How our time together changed from playing with toys..to riding bicycle..then to car..
Our shopping for stationary changed to shopping for marriage..

Our mothers used to dicuss our homework together..and now..our marriages and future..

For me,she is the same innocent and cute best friend..who was so talkative that we always used to get punished in class for that..and we both daily got slapped by our hindi teacher in 4th standard..still we had never ending talks :D :D

We have grown up together..I remember each and every moment of time we had spent together..
When we were in 5th,we had a huge fight. I was very angry and I broke her new pens (so bad of me) :p
And i still remember..at same night her mom called my mom to ask what happened in school today..coz she was crying continuously and had not eaten anything after school..
I felt so bad that I never got angry on her her after that day! Whenever I feel bit angry,that incident flashes before my eyes..and my all anger evaporates away.. :)

And here I was..watching my lil innocent friend who has actually so grown up that she was getting engaged!
Her dad was on stage smiling at every photograph, but I could see his sad face and sometimes a tear would roll over her eyes and he would quickly hid behind someone and wipe it with his hanky..! I guess..he was thinking the same as me..or may me much more..!
And when her mom cried on a song,evryone close to her had watery and red eyes..full of tears..
Her younger sister was also very emotional, and very happy on her engagement :)

I always go to her home unplanned..uninvited(coz i dont need an invitation :p)..in my pyjamas sometimes.. I never bother how I look..And we always have memorable time together..standing by each other in difficult times and sharing lots of secrets :)

Our mothers say we are each others medicine..coz we know how to repair each other when we are broken..better say 'mechanics' :D

So..with all these things in my head..I was attending her function and it was like a dream for me..I was thinking will I be able to go to her home uninvited,,in my pyjamas..like before?
Or may be not..coz we are grown up now..and new life and responsibilities..
Though the function went very well..everyone was dressed very nicely and was happy..and I pushed me outself of these emotions to enjoy the engagement and started dancing on my favourute song "veera kodi da te bhabi sadi dhai lakh dii" :p :p

Well..my to be jiju is very nice and I wish good life to new couple..
I wish he always keep my sis happy :)

MY PERFECTION

After changing 6 working places in past 3 months, I am still not satisfied..
There is a very thin line between Dreams and Expectations..

When we dream big, we have bigger expectations....

If you dream for a BMW car, a maruti will never give you that feeling of achievement.
Right now, I am like a BMW dreamer..not at all satisfied with my maruti kind of conditions and situations around..

Everything in the beginning seems so perfect, but then suddenly things change ..and I feel like a turtle who wants to hide itself in its shell avoiding the real world...!

I think it will keep on happening to me till I get immune to these things..
Well..am kinda getting immune..

This time is full of challenges and struggles..
I feel like looking for a destination and going from a path in jungle..
Somewhere there are beautiful flowers and trees..somewhere beautiful scenes..and somewhere stones,bushes and dangerous animals..!

But i know, when I will reach my destination and look back at this path, I will have a confident smile on my face and all pain of my bruises will get vanished in a second!

In this imperfect world, I am looking for perfections, and I believe I am moving forward.. and moving on........

I have realized the importance of few close people who truly love me..and I feel so rich to have gems like them..That is the perfection of my life till now.. :)

AN OLD LADY PATIENT WHO CHANGED MY DAY

It is so strange that some people resemble with someone a lot,,and they remind you about that special someone and you dwell into memories n memories..!
What to say if that someone was your family member...!!

I diagnosed an old lady patient today..she was of short height,lean,wearing a spects and was covering her head with her dupatta..
she was looking so similar to my grandma..but i was busy and it didnt come to my mind at that time..
She had root stumps and x-ray was to be done..
When I asked her for money to pay for x ray,she slided her hand into a pocket attached to her long undershirt(just like pockets attached to kurta pyjama) and took out a hanky which was tied into knots,wrapped around money..

At that moment,i was stunned..it was my typical grandma thing..
we called her chai ji..
She would always keep her money like this..wrapped n tied into hankeys..
And she would forget where she kept her that hankey in room..she would get nervous that her money was misplaced,and all kids in house (me,my brother n 3 cousins) would search for that hankey all around in her room..!under the bed..below pillow...mattress..inside trunks..in uer almirah..everywhere!!
It was just like hunting for a treasure..n whoever found it would be so happy,as it always brought her smile back to her face..
For her,even small amount like 10 rs was big for her,coz she had not much idea about latest market prices..
For her,in 10rs you could buy a lot of stuff..!
That was the most innocent part of her which I loved the most..!
Sometimes she would wrap her hankey around her spects n would forget where she kept it..That was the most emergency situation...!
My all family would leave all their work and start searching for her spects..
And then dad would announce a prize for the winner,n we wud search with more enthusiasm.!
This was the best family hide n seek game we played..
We never got angry on her as we knew it was coz of her ageing...
She became more n more innocent and childish as she grew older..

There was one simple trick to make her happy- a cup of tea made by me..! She loved it n would always apppreciate it..

Whenever i wasnt around, mom would make 'mithi sewiya' for her..her all time favourite!!
Whenever me or my brother would get hurt while playing,we would always rush to chai ji to show it to her.. she would get so much panicked even by a small scratch, n we loved the sympathy n care by her..!!
She passed away 4 yrs back..and i must say,with her,most of the happiness,family togetherness n lively atmosphere is gone too!!

Miss you a lot chai ji..You are always remembered..may you be happy,wherever you are......!!

EXTENSION PHASE

Officially internship over,but still lingering in between..
Its bit weird to see new interns in place of your friends..now you cant go for gehris in every dept to meet your friends, or expect a waving hand with a big friendly smile, sometimes accompanied by punch or tickling for teasing each other...!
The college doesnt seems as our own now, coz we have been replaced...!
Mixed feelings..sometimes wanna go home as early as possible to start next phase of life,,and sometimes i wanna stay here for long to spend more time with my buddies....
In these last few days,we feel like spending more n more time with each other..now even afternoon nap seems like a waste of time..! I just wanna enjoy each n every phase of these precious last days left ( provided everything remains unchanged, which is not possible)..
Time for goodbyes to few friends,and enjoying with remaining friends..
Whatever is going around..i feel so confused..i dont know whether I am happy or sad..its like..we are lingering in between-
between sadness and happiness..
Between staying and moving on..
Between kiddish to being mature..
Between goodbyes to staying in touch....!!!!

Internship diary- Part 4

Here I am..sitting alone in my room..There is silence all around..
Its 2nd week of june and most of the students have gone home.

Exams of 2nd,3rd n 4th year are finished..everybody has gone home happily to enjoy their holidays and are waiting for their results..I know..we interns might never be able to meet them again..!!

                                                    So I am finally writing the last part of internship diary..I don’t know from where to start and where to end.. My life from a teenager to young girl, my most important 5 years of my life are flashing in front of my eyes,,with memories and memories…

                                                    I still remember the first day when I joined college,when I chose my room,my roomies..and the way my parents were continuously crying as I had to stay away from home..These 5 years have passed so fast..!!

We all have seen so much here..learnt so much..
We all made friends,had fights..big fights..had best friends..enemies.. Bf..breakups..jealousy..competitions..gossiping..backbiting..torture..exams..failures..parties..outings..movies..
Many times we were shattered and broken into pieces..but our friends came closer and brought all those shattered pieces back.. :)

I must say,in these 5 years, most of us have spent much more time with friends than family..We all have seen so much and now we are grown ups..
In these 5 years,our friends were our family..

Very few days of internship are left..most of us have started packing and shifting our belongings to our home again..counting days on finger….

We all are happy to leave, as we have future plans and dreams to work on ( like I mentioned DREAMS in my last part)..

But I can feel the sentiments in everybody's eyes..
Sentiments related to their friends,,this college, their favourite teachers,their room..roomies..and their favourite hangout places in patiala…!

It reminds me of an old saying:

"ek panchi ko pinjre me dala..
Jab udne ka time aya to pinjre se pyar ho gya!! "

We used to curse this college so much in beginning..and now we all love it! :)

I don’t know how..but I am kinda ok with leaving now..coz I know,I can't achieve more by staying more here…its time for changes..and we have to accept it,,embrace it with our arms wide open!

Enjoy this time to the fullest guys..this time is not gonna come back..
Resolve all fights..talk to your enemies, n make them friends again..coz you are gonna miss them the most!
Somebody once told me that the person with which you fight the most is the person you are attached to a lot,and unknowingly love a lot..!

So give away your harsh feelings and ego..its time to shake hands again and have a happy ending.. :)

It feels sad to think that we wont be able to bunk college and enjoy with friends like this anymore..
We wont have group of friends sitting beside us to share maggie or watch movies together..

We wont be having any more surprise bday parties having your big bunch of friends dancing crazily,giving you bday bumps and cake facials..

Everything will be restricted to phone calls and messages..
Starting from discussing everything in first few months,,and slowly ending up formally in years ,,saying 'hi, how are you!'

Time changes..people change..feelings change..but memories remain the same..!!

But we wont be alone..we with be family again now..may be we wont have much time to think about this..life will be really busy..
And most of us will be in arms of our life partners,,enjoying the second phase of our life..the mature phase..youth phase..and yes..the PROFFESIONAL PHASE….

Lets slow down your packing friends,,coz you dunno about the big devil called ''EXTENSION''!! :D :D

Lets hope to finish this on time..!
Good luck!!

SEARCHING FOR HAPPINESS

I have been waiting for more than a month,,to feel good so that I can write a happy article..The wait to be happy is still going on..finally I have settled down to write about my life..

From the past so many days, I have been asking myself a question-

'what is actully important in life?'

Is it money..or is it good status..

Or a good degree and a good job..

Family? Friends?Profession? Relationship? Marriage

Now I have found my answer..Its HAPPINESS..!!

I have reached where I wanted to be from childhood. I always wanted to become a doctor. I would always fantasize myself wearing a white apron, working in a good hospital, getting respect by people and calling myself Dr Teena Nanda..!

But the sad truth is.. I am now being wondering was it all worth? Coz I am not happy at all..

Was it worth staying away from family for 5 years facing so many troubles..!

Was it worth missing so many family function and parties for studies..missing movies and outings for projects and practicals..!

I gave away my most of pocket money for Dental materials, skipping my shopping for clothes and acessories..

When all other girls around me were busy dressing themselves up, trying out fashionable clothes..makups..jewellary,, I was the one scratching my head full of tensions for my projects, tests, studies, files, discussions,seminars!

Was it worth studying late nights and getting my eyes weaker, wearing thicker glasses than before..!

The sad reality is people don’t realize your hard work untill and unless you show them your handsome salary which proves it!!

I feel like everything has just eloped!!

Like there is lots of silence after so much of lightenings and thunder,storms..

There is a complete lull..a phase of complete darkness..

I feel lonely without friends..I miss my college life..my hostel days..those carefree days.. No responsibilities, no tensions apart from studies..

But now..this life is not so good..Now the rose tinted glass around me has broken into pieces to face the world..

Its called PROFESSIONAL LIFE..and I have to get used to it..

Its not so glittering as it seems from outside..

You have to go to work wearing good clothes and a confident smile on your face no matter how you feel..

The only people you have are the patients.. sad ones..crying in pain..treat them and feel good..thats all!

Life is becoming so busy that we don’t have time for friends..no chit chats..no movies..no gehris..no long talks on phones..

You just have to behave like a robot..like a moron..No matter what, just keep doing the same things everyday, wearing a plastic smile hiding all your real emotions..like you are programmed..!

Its not that I am used to friends and masti all the time..No No.. But I am not used to feel alone.. I am not used to feel like a moron..Not used to keep my things to myself..!

Yes I am a Dentist..and I have a good job.. People do respect me..

But there is something inside me which is burning..

I feel myself like a candle..Showing spark and light, but actually melting down and hurting myself..

I feel like a wanderer..losing everything..losing myself..!!

Dear God, if life is so tough,,then I don’t wanna grow up.. These all things are just not worth.. Please  return my happy days back again..Return my old time back..That time, when I was reallyyyy happyy..

This is not the life that I always wished for..and have struggled for..!!

Seriously..I just wanna be HAPPY..i just want a REAL SMILE on my face..Thats it..!!!! Am I asking too much..??!! :(

My GaNg Of FrEnZ

When i joined hostel ,
everything seemed new n exciting..
and i was interviewed by my roomies ,
till 4 o'clock of morning..!! :D
 
 
Richa and Kavneet,,
both so sweet..
we lived like sisters ,
3 roomies who were ready to spread their wings..
we enjoyed a lot..
and fought everyday for small things.. :P
 
 
when Richa came to college,
she used to say..
"main to yaha papa ka sapna poora krne ai hu..''
n me n kavneet giggled..
coz we knew she is gonna change..;)
 
 
we have a beautician in our group of friends..
''Fite Haal'' she says,before every sentence.. :D
Neha Kajla is her name,
and her beauty tips are gaining fame.. ;)
 
 
And then i found a friend so Fun loving,
Pearl Goyal,who enjoys everything..
Damn,we bunked so many classes,
and still tried to look studious,
by wearing glasses.. :D
 
 
we rushed to canteen after every lecture,
just to have a "gehri"
and got caught many times
and our good impression was fractured..!! :P
 
 
and we have a sumo wrestler,
Prabhjot is her name..
dont take ''panga''
as being punched by her is now a game.. :p
 
 
her roomie Navdeep Hara is beaten when she creates a fuss,
and still you can see them together..
enjoying maggi n cold drink
in  the hostel mess.. :P
 
 
''Kameeni kutiya'' are the adorable words 
 we use for each other.. :D
 we love,
 we share,
 we help,
 and care for one another.......... :)))))))))

Daddy's Princess

when i came into this world, 
i was embraced by my parents
and was lying
in my mom's lap curled

they were very happy
as i was theiir first child
they were thanking the almighty, 
looked at me n smiled

small girls like
playing with dolls
but i loved playing cricket
with my dad n bros

when i joined school
mom packed my tiffin
with nutritious vegetables and rotis
and you would fill my pockets
with chocolates and toffees 

when i was a child, 
i used to say it loud
i will become a doctor
n will make u proud! 

when your friend told u once
that spending so much money on a girl is useless
u said it boldly.
that i love her as much as my son
and she is my princess.

whenever i fell ill, 
you had sleepless nights
you would hug me tight
and took me to the doctor
in the middle of nights.

when i tried n failed
you were the only one to hold my hand
to say
you will leave 
everybody behind.
i trust you, 
and i am proud of you, 
my child.

now the time has changed
n so the dreams
when someone calls me doctor
i dont feel so glad
but what make me happy
is to see the shine
in the eyes of my dad! 

I dont think i have achieved much
i need a lot of time 
to make my dreams come true, 
but i cant wait to say
PAPA, , I LOVE YOU, , 
AND I AM PROUD OF YOU! :)

I wish i was strong

Everybody says
I m strong.
but is it really so? 

I still remember the day
when my grandma was taking her last breath
i saw everybody crying around me
i held my tears
just to wish that she will b fine
but someone said something
that left me moron.
she said u don't have feelings
n u have a heart of stone! 

Nobody knew
how much i cried silently
how much i loved her deeply
and countless sleepless nights
Everybody says one thing.
U r so strong, 
coz u never cry! 

And then came the time
when my brother had to go
far away from me 
to make his carrier.
this was like a dream which was scarier.
i wanted to tell him
i cant let u go
coz i love u the most.
which u'll never know.

whenever i eat Maggie, 
i remember those times
when he would force me into kitchen
in the middle of night
to make Maggie n get something to eat
n company him with a movie
which was so sweet.

whenever i drive activa
i feel tears rolling down
and my heart pounding
to feel the empty seat behind
and silence all around.

what happened is question
asked by friends
and i answer the same.
it is coz of discomfort
caused by lens! 

I feel so lonely
even in group of friends.
but i always try to keep a smile on my face
which has now become a trend.
coz nobody likes sad faces
everybody is busy in their own races.

i don't want sympathy
i don't wanna complain.
i just want someone to hold my hand
and look into my eyes whenever m sad
to smile and say
cheer up stupid
i know you are lying
don't show me ur fake smile
coz i know, from inside u r crying!

A letter to mother from daughter

Dear mom,

             as mother's day is coming,I have finally decided to write for you..sorry mom for the delay..you have told me about hundred times to write for you,,but I couldn’t,,because i  knew it would be emotional one and you would be reading it with eyes full of tears..and you know mummy,,I cant see you crying….

                                                      First of all..Happy mother's day..You are the most adorable,caring,cute mother in the world,,as well as my best friend..I am so happy to see that you are much more excited for mother's day than your birthday!! :)

I really feel short of words when I think about writing for you..

You have taught me to write..to walk..to talk..good things,,bad things..everything!!

When people say I look like you,,that I am your copy..i feel so good mom..i feel so proud..I want to be YOU..!!

You have always taken care of me n loved me unconditionally from day 1..no matter how much I bothered you..!!

But mom..i really didn’t realized it till I left home for studies n came to hostel..

I used to get irritated when you would rush after me with plate full of fruits..for breakfast..for milk..you would always scold me "khana jaldi kha le ni to thanda ho jayega..'' ..i didn’t realized how big are these things till I came to hostel..

I remember..i was a complete mess when I was on my own..for so many days I went to college wearing dirty apron,,unpressed clothes..dirty footwears..

I missed my breakfast uncountable times as I was always late..

There was no one here who was rushing after me with plate of food or glass of milk..worrying that I will be hungry..

For many nights I slept hungry because I didn’t like hostel food...

Slowly I realized..that i have to eat on my own,,whether its tasty or not..otherwise I have to suffer…!!

That was really hard mom..i missed u so much at all those times…

During my exams..there was no one in hostel to care for me..

no one to look after me the way you do whenever I was sick..

Then I realized..i have to do it on my own,,otherwise I will suffer..!!

I have lots of friends,,but you know mom..how can anybody else feel my pain like you do…...!!

I was really broke when you n dad would cry whenever I would leave for hostel..till now..!! i can see tears in your eyes..but I never shed a tear..it doesn't mean I don’t get sad..I just trying to be strong in front of you! Because I don’t want to see you cry..

Sorry mom for the times when I scold you and get hyper whenever I hear about even a small health problem you or dad have..Its not that I exaggerate everything.. Its just I can't see you getting older and weak.. Please take care of yourself and dad,,like you take care of me n varun.. I'll be more than happy and relaxed…

I know you n dad are very happy as I am about to come back home from hostel..i am very happy too mom..

But sometimes when I look around..my friends are getting married..and it makes me think..will I be able to spend a lot of time with you now??

Will I be getting the same love and care from inlaws after marriage,,like you,dad n varun do…..??!!

I know you must be crying by now mom..i am really sorry…

I can't write more..I am in tears too..

I just want you to know I love you a lot..and I want to spend a lot of time with you now,,because I really miss you and dad a lot…!!!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM..WISH YOU GOOD HEALTH AND LOTTS OF HAPPINESS…

            

                                               from love-

                                                           your daughter

A letter to mother from daughter

Dear mom,

             as mother's day is coming,I have finally decided to write for you..sorry mom for the delay..you have told me about hundred times to write for you,,but I couldn’t,,because i  knew it would be emotional one and you would be reading it with eyes full of tears..and you know mummy,,I cant see you crying….

                                                      First of all..Happy mother's day..You are the most adorable,caring,cute mother in the world,,as well as my best friend..I am so happy to see that you are much more excited for mother's day than your birthday!! :)

I really feel short of words when I think about writing for you..

You have taught me to write..to walk..to talk..good things,,bad things..everything!!

When people say I look like you,,that I am your copy..i feel so good mom..i feel so proud..I want to be YOU..!!

You have always taken care of me n loved me unconditionally from day 1..no matter how much I bothered you..!!

But mom..i really didn’t realized it till I left home for studies n came to hostel..

I used to get irritated when you would rush after me with plate full of fruits..for breakfast..for milk..you would always scold me "khana jaldi kha le ni to thanda ho jayega..'' ..i didn’t realized how big are these things till I came to hostel..

I remember..i was a complete mess when I was on my own..for so many days I went to college wearing dirty apron,,unpressed clothes..dirty footwears..

I missed my breakfast uncountable times as I was always late..

There was no one here who was rushing after me with plate of food or glass of milk..worrying that I will be hungry..

For many nights I slept hungry because I didn’t like hostel food...

Slowly I realized..that i have to eat on my own,,whether its tasty or not..otherwise I have to suffer…!!

That was really hard mom..i missed u so much at all those times…

During my exams..there was no one in hostel to care for me..

no one to look after me the way you do whenever I was sick..

Then I realized..i have to do it on my own,,otherwise I will suffer..!!

I have lots of friends,,but you know mom..how can anybody else feel my pain like you do…...!!

I was really broke when you n dad would cry whenever I would leave for hostel..till now..!! i can see tears in your eyes..but I never shed a tear..it doesn't mean I don’t get sad..I just trying to be strong in front of you! Because I don’t want to see you cry..

Sorry mom for the times when I scold you and get hyper whenever I hear about even a small health problem you or dad have..Its not that I exaggerate everything.. Its just I can't see you getting older and weak.. Please take care of yourself and dad,,like you take care of me n varun.. I'll be more than happy and relaxed…

I know you n dad are very happy as I am about to come back home from hostel..i am very happy too mom..

But sometimes when I look around..my friends are getting married..and it makes me think..will I be able to spend a lot of time with you now??

Will I be getting the same love and care from inlaws after marriage,,like you,dad n varun do…..??!!

I know you must be crying by now mom..i am really sorry…

I can't write more..I am in tears too..

I just want you to know I love you a lot..and I want to spend a lot of time with you now,,because I really miss you and dad a lot…!!!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOM..WISH YOU GOOD HEALTH AND LOTTS OF HAPPINESS…

            

                                               from love-

                                                           your daughter

InTeRnShIp d!ArY…PART 3

Hey guys..am back with the most awaited article ..part 3..!!

I thought my part 3 would be a sad one..saying sad goodbyes and describing about things we will miss the most…
BUT surprisingly..its the most HAPPIEST part….
We had a very Rocking time in these few months..so many parties..my best birthday celebration (which was made best by JAAGO in hostel!!)..so many birthday parties of my friends,,roomies,,,celebrating our last festiwals in hostel with great joy…!

The title of this part 3 is DREAMS…..!!!!!!

I had never imagined things would change to so good and exciting..!!
By now..we all have enjoyed our internship period fully,,and are counting our remaining days on fingers….but apart from that..i can see shine in the eyes of every Intern….

Yes…EYES SHINING WITH DREAMS..with lots of plannings of future…
Some are planning to go abroad….
Some are preparing for MDS,DDS,IAS,,etc.. (all the best!)
Most of the girl's parents are looking for a suitable guy for their marriage..
Few are dreaming about marrying their bf/gf..
2 are married..

And most exciting..few are engaged..!! Woohooooo..!! The marriage season is coming guys..get ready with your trendy jewellary and latest glittering clothes n footwears..obviously you have to look FAB on your friend's wedding..!!

the days which we have been planning since first year are here..
"yar teri shadi pe hum aise dance krenge..aise jaago nikalenge..jiju ke shoes waha chupayenge..aise kapde pehnenge..ye khayenge.. Itna dance krenge ki sab dekhenge iske friends kitne mast aur khush hai!! "

And then comes the reply from that friend " ye sab ulte kaam mat krna..tumpe bharosa ni mujhe..meri bezti mat krana..!! '' :D
And the most awaited question.."yar honeymoon pe kaha jaoge?? :D :P"

And about the career conscious people..they must have been dreaming about getting in their favourite college for MDS..or favourite jobs..Selection in IAS..just think guys..think that this was the day for which we have been studying since we were 3..and now it is here..we have to make our parents proud..! Go for it..chase your dreams..YOU ARE VERYYYY CLOSE…!!!!!

WOW..these are all dreams..which makes our face glow..eyes shine..puts a smile on our face….

Now when I look at my grown up friends..it makes me think..have we really grown up..??!!
I still have all the memories in my mind..about all the pagalpanti we did together..

Getting drenched in rain.. (which I did even today..that means am still not grown up! :P)
Singing songs in our most melodious voice..( u know..i mean SHOUTING SONGS!)…… birthday bumps..cake facials..!
Teasing each other for silly things….fighting for the last bite of food we share..making fun of movies (mostly horror!!) :D
And so many things….

Oh..how can I forget to mention our playing sessions….
That was the time when I could see our childhood flashing back…YES..we really played like kiddos….
After college all the hostel girls would gather in college ground and played games like BADMINTON ,CRICKET, KHO KHO,BARAF PANI, UNCH NEECH KA PAPRA ,CHAIN CHAIN,,KABBADDI.. (OMG..we are suddenly grown up in 4 months!! :O)

The favourite one was cricket..It really makes me laugh when I think the way we would fight with boys for the ground first..n then we would fight for bowling n batting…and the funniest part…we all cheated like hell!! :D
My bowling was most awful one..you cant even think about hitting the wickets..it was always diverted WIDER than the WIDE BOWL!!!! :D :P
And about fielding..none of us could stop a crawling ball…!! Forget about catches….!! Ha ha!!

The worst game was chain chain..coz I was the slowest runner and was always caught first…!! O nooooo
This is the reason I have lost weight (my secret of weight loss is reveiled girls..Sshhh..! :p)

Hey yar..dont grow up..childhood and innocence is best….i loved the way you all showed up in winter playing season….
Love the way you are guys..and now I seriuously love this college which we had been cursing since first year..!!
O no no..No more senti talks..

Your this authour batchmate is trying her best to pen down few memories..so that it can bring smile on each one of you when you read this in future..

KEEP ENJOYING...RISE N SHINE..MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE…WISH YOU ALL A BRIGHT FUTURE AHEAD….

InTeRnShIp D!arY..PART-2

7 months of internship have passed..having lots of fun..so many parties..lazy mornings..waking up till late nights..making maggie in middle of night…

Oops..lemme start from mornings…

The best n fuzzy part..!!

I have really tough mornings u kno.. :P

Every morning when I find it difficult to wake up,I promise myself on bed that I will surely go to bed early from today..AND..I break this promise everyday!! :D

Then comes the race..When I wake up, I am already late for college…!waking up itself is not easy..I get up from bed only when my roomies are tired of calling my name..TEENA MAM UTHH JAOOO..LATE HO GYE…!! :P

And my mobile is tired of getting snoozed every 5 minutes till I swash away half of its battery!!

Typical me..opening my one eye when the alarm rings..half asleep lying cozy in my quilt..taking my hand out of my quilt n snoozing my alarm again n again…!! :D :D

Pheww… 9 am is soooo early to get ready..!!!! Isnt it guys..?

And the struggle isn't over yet..!! Then I have to rush with my eyes half closed..rush to almirah to take out the first piece of my clothes that come to my hand..

Then running here n there in room to search for things..

Yes..i mean SEARCHING FOR THINGS..! My room ..(part which is mine) is sooo messyyy!! :p

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I look at clock every 5 minutes watching myself getting late n speeding up..!!

Its already 9 when I am half ready!! Lool…

Quickly half combing my hair..wearing odd combos of clothes n footwears,I rush towards office for attendance with my swollen ZOMBIE EYES n messed up hair…!! :D

Everyday I get scolded (most of us gets scolded) for getting late..got punished by half days..but we are INTERNS! We don’t mind getting scolded now..we are so much used to it…!! :D

Ahh..i don’t think I need to exercise now..I do much of the exertion n running part in morning..i think its enoughhhh……!!!!!

Internship Diary….Part-1

Many of us has started with the golden period..INTERNSHIP..

So guys..how are you feeling to be a doctor? Great feeling,isnt it?

                                      After studying a lot in final year, all of us are in a full mood to relax and enjoy..

Everybody is on cloud nine..

Well, I can say that its enjoyment starts in the very beginning of day, when girls spend time to apply their favourite eyeliners, nail paints ..and boys..they spend ample amount of time standing in front of mirror setting their new hairstyles..! Fresh feeling of becoming a doctor,eh? ;) Then getting late for departments everydays and running for attendance in office.. :D

And the best part..when all of us sit in groups with our friends in their departments,, playing games, gossiping and making plans for outings and movies..! .But only few plans are turned into actions.. :D well,,that’s a different story.. :P

Almost in every department, one corner of it is turned  into KIDS SECTION, having all the games like luddo,cards,UNO,Chess,etc.. :D My favourite cards game is BLUFF, and I am going to become a BLUFFMASTER soon… :D

Most of the students..Oops..i mean interns..are enjoying their departments.. :) I am posted in Oral Surgery department.. Enjoying extractions..I did just one tough extraction today, and ended up having cramps in both my arms..See..how lazy I have become in these holidays!! :D

O yes..I make many plans for exercise and evening walks too..but how can I miss my serials! These are our main topic of gossiping apart from departments.. :P  All girls stuff..hehehe ;)

Feeling great to see my friends enjoying after a long time..Otherwise I had seen all of u running for patient quotas, practical work, grades, tests,,and much more..

Keep it up guys..enjoy this period as much as you can…. Am sure we all will be having lots of wonderful memories in this year.. :) :)

Am getting late for my dinner..gotta go now.. Am having a big ' TO DO LIST ' for this weekend………

And most important..My arms need rest..!! LOL LOL LOL :D

Just ChillAxx..Be Happiiee

Sumtimes in lyf v feel so blue,

bt sum1 sumwere is nt happy as u.

Sumwere far at d border wen a soldier sleeps,

misin his loved 1s he silently weeps.

Sumwere a mother painfully sighs,

coz her new born baby didnt open his eyes.

Sumwere a poor dad silently cries,

wen he sees his son begging 4 a bowl of rice.

Somewhere in an orphnage a litle gal is sad,

when she mises her mom nd dad.

So at times a reasn to smile you may not have any,

say to yourself that you are happier than many.

'Cause life is beautiful and its not always blue,

and someone somewhere is not as happy as you'........

Complaints....

When i was a child,

i used to complain..

about so much noise in the house

caused by so many family members,

about the guests,

arriving after every couple of days..

and i considered it pain..

i complained about my friends..

who would call me

 in d middle of nights, ,

 n used to talk for hours..

they would finish all the balance,

and disturbed my sleep

which i didnt like at all

and i complained and weeped..

I didnt like my friends,

 who guided me to different way..

which they considered right, 

and i told them i wanted space by anyways..

i prayed to god to finish all this, ,

and wished for lil more silence and space

where i should be alone,

and no one to disturb.

and i considered it a bliss..

but when my wish came true,

all i was left with..

silence and darkness.

where i was left with nobody around me

to love and caress..

i have balance, 

but no one to talk for hours..

i have money,

but no one to spend with..

they have given me the so called ''space''

and i am left with nothing but

loneliness

i wish i get everything back again..

and now,

m complaining again!

now i wish

that things wouldnt have changed..

please somebody bring that old time back, 

and i promise, 

i wont complaint again !!!!

Searching myself..

Here i am back to writing..sitting in the middle of the night..Thinking about all the changes that are going to happen...
Yes changes..college life is going to end..When i think of everything,it comes as a flashback of memories n memories..!!
I feel lost..entangled in mixed emotions of happiness,excitement and sadness..! A girl next door who has lots of dreams,,,out of which few are accomplished and many more yet to come....
Many dreams broken..Hearth broken..Friends made..friends lost...
Miss them all....

Sometimes I am very much scared n sad coz of changes,,n sometimes excited..

I know many of you will be going through the same..

Just standing in the middle of road,,diverging into many paths..thinking about which  to take........

reminding the lines by Robert Frost:

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth; ......................