MY GROWN UP SISTER

Today I am writing about someone very special and close to my heart..She is not my bloud bound sister, but she means more than that to me..She is my bestie..We are best friends since she joined my school in 1st standard. Her home is my second home..Her family is my second family,,and same applies to her..I can write a book on her :D

I have mentioned "grown up" coz she is engaged now.. :)
I was really very much happy and excited about her engagement..But when I attended her engagement,I was all stunned and lost in thoughts..!
Behind flashy lights,colourful clothes and dj sounds,,I was there..watching her on stage..she was looking really beautiful!!
For the first time,I could sense real emotions behind engagement and marriages..I was wondering..when did we grow up so fast!! When her fiancee was holding her hand,I was remembering how we used to run into playground holding hands,,and after few years,,into markets..
How our time together changed from playing with toys..to riding bicycle..then to car..
Our shopping for stationary changed to shopping for marriage..

Our mothers used to dicuss our homework together..and now..our marriages and future..

For me,she is the same innocent and cute best friend..who was so talkative that we always used to get punished in class for that..and we both daily got slapped by our hindi teacher in 4th standard..still we had never ending talks :D :D

We have grown up together..I remember each and every moment of time we had spent together..
When we were in 5th,we had a huge fight. I was very angry and I broke her new pens (so bad of me) :p
And i still remember..at same night her mom called my mom to ask what happened in school today..coz she was crying continuously and had not eaten anything after school..
I felt so bad that I never got angry on her her after that day! Whenever I feel bit angry,that incident flashes before my eyes..and my all anger evaporates away.. :)

And here I was..watching my lil innocent friend who has actually so grown up that she was getting engaged!
Her dad was on stage smiling at every photograph, but I could see his sad face and sometimes a tear would roll over her eyes and he would quickly hid behind someone and wipe it with his hanky..! I guess..he was thinking the same as me..or may me much more..!
And when her mom cried on a song,evryone close to her had watery and red eyes..full of tears..
Her younger sister was also very emotional, and very happy on her engagement :)

I always go to her home unplanned..uninvited(coz i dont need an invitation :p)..in my pyjamas sometimes.. I never bother how I look..And we always have memorable time together..standing by each other in difficult times and sharing lots of secrets :)

Our mothers say we are each others medicine..coz we know how to repair each other when we are broken..better say 'mechanics' :D

So..with all these things in my head..I was attending her function and it was like a dream for me..I was thinking will I be able to go to her home uninvited,,in my pyjamas..like before?
Or may be not..coz we are grown up now..and new life and responsibilities..
Though the function went very well..everyone was dressed very nicely and was happy..and I pushed me outself of these emotions to enjoy the engagement and started dancing on my favourute song "veera kodi da te bhabi sadi dhai lakh dii" :p :p

Well..my to be jiju is very nice and I wish good life to new couple..
I wish he always keep my sis happy :)

MY PERFECTION

After changing 6 working places in past 3 months, I am still not satisfied..
There is a very thin line between Dreams and Expectations..

When we dream big, we have bigger expectations....

If you dream for a BMW car, a maruti will never give you that feeling of achievement.
Right now, I am like a BMW dreamer..not at all satisfied with my maruti kind of conditions and situations around..

Everything in the beginning seems so perfect, but then suddenly things change ..and I feel like a turtle who wants to hide itself in its shell avoiding the real world...!

I think it will keep on happening to me till I get immune to these things..
Well..am kinda getting immune..

This time is full of challenges and struggles..
I feel like looking for a destination and going from a path in jungle..
Somewhere there are beautiful flowers and trees..somewhere beautiful scenes..and somewhere stones,bushes and dangerous animals..!

But i know, when I will reach my destination and look back at this path, I will have a confident smile on my face and all pain of my bruises will get vanished in a second!

In this imperfect world, I am looking for perfections, and I believe I am moving forward.. and moving on........

I have realized the importance of few close people who truly love me..and I feel so rich to have gems like them..That is the perfection of my life till now.. :)

AN OLD LADY PATIENT WHO CHANGED MY DAY

It is so strange that some people resemble with someone a lot,,and they remind you about that special someone and you dwell into memories n memories..!
What to say if that someone was your family member...!!

I diagnosed an old lady patient today..she was of short height,lean,wearing a spects and was covering her head with her dupatta..
she was looking so similar to my grandma..but i was busy and it didnt come to my mind at that time..
She had root stumps and x-ray was to be done..
When I asked her for money to pay for x ray,she slided her hand into a pocket attached to her long undershirt(just like pockets attached to kurta pyjama) and took out a hanky which was tied into knots,wrapped around money..

At that moment,i was stunned..it was my typical grandma thing..
we called her chai ji..
She would always keep her money like this..wrapped n tied into hankeys..
And she would forget where she kept her that hankey in room..she would get nervous that her money was misplaced,and all kids in house (me,my brother n 3 cousins) would search for that hankey all around in her room..!under the bed..below pillow...mattress..inside trunks..in uer almirah..everywhere!!
It was just like hunting for a treasure..n whoever found it would be so happy,as it always brought her smile back to her face..
For her,even small amount like 10 rs was big for her,coz she had not much idea about latest market prices..
For her,in 10rs you could buy a lot of stuff..!
That was the most innocent part of her which I loved the most..!
Sometimes she would wrap her hankey around her spects n would forget where she kept it..That was the most emergency situation...!
My all family would leave all their work and start searching for her spects..
And then dad would announce a prize for the winner,n we wud search with more enthusiasm.!
This was the best family hide n seek game we played..
We never got angry on her as we knew it was coz of her ageing...
She became more n more innocent and childish as she grew older..

There was one simple trick to make her happy- a cup of tea made by me..! She loved it n would always apppreciate it..

Whenever i wasnt around, mom would make 'mithi sewiya' for her..her all time favourite!!
Whenever me or my brother would get hurt while playing,we would always rush to chai ji to show it to her.. she would get so much panicked even by a small scratch, n we loved the sympathy n care by her..!!
She passed away 4 yrs back..and i must say,with her,most of the happiness,family togetherness n lively atmosphere is gone too!!

Miss you a lot chai ji..You are always remembered..may you be happy,wherever you are......!!

EXTENSION PHASE

Officially internship over,but still lingering in between..
Its bit weird to see new interns in place of your friends..now you cant go for gehris in every dept to meet your friends, or expect a waving hand with a big friendly smile, sometimes accompanied by punch or tickling for teasing each other...!
The college doesnt seems as our own now, coz we have been replaced...!
Mixed feelings..sometimes wanna go home as early as possible to start next phase of life,,and sometimes i wanna stay here for long to spend more time with my buddies....
In these last few days,we feel like spending more n more time with each other..now even afternoon nap seems like a waste of time..! I just wanna enjoy each n every phase of these precious last days left ( provided everything remains unchanged, which is not possible)..
Time for goodbyes to few friends,and enjoying with remaining friends..
Whatever is going around..i feel so confused..i dont know whether I am happy or sad..its like..we are lingering in between-
between sadness and happiness..
Between staying and moving on..
Between kiddish to being mature..
Between goodbyes to staying in touch....!!!!

Internship diary- Part 4

Here I am..sitting alone in my room..There is silence all around..
Its 2nd week of june and most of the students have gone home.

Exams of 2nd,3rd n 4th year are finished..everybody has gone home happily to enjoy their holidays and are waiting for their results..I know..we interns might never be able to meet them again..!!

                                                    So I am finally writing the last part of internship diary..I don’t know from where to start and where to end.. My life from a teenager to young girl, my most important 5 years of my life are flashing in front of my eyes,,with memories and memories…

                                                    I still remember the first day when I joined college,when I chose my room,my roomies..and the way my parents were continuously crying as I had to stay away from home..These 5 years have passed so fast..!!

We all have seen so much here..learnt so much..
We all made friends,had fights..big fights..had best friends..enemies.. Bf..breakups..jealousy..competitions..gossiping..backbiting..torture..exams..failures..parties..outings..movies..
Many times we were shattered and broken into pieces..but our friends came closer and brought all those shattered pieces back.. :)

I must say,in these 5 years, most of us have spent much more time with friends than family..We all have seen so much and now we are grown ups..
In these 5 years,our friends were our family..

Very few days of internship are left..most of us have started packing and shifting our belongings to our home again..counting days on finger….

We all are happy to leave, as we have future plans and dreams to work on ( like I mentioned DREAMS in my last part)..

But I can feel the sentiments in everybody's eyes..
Sentiments related to their friends,,this college, their favourite teachers,their room..roomies..and their favourite hangout places in patiala…!

It reminds me of an old saying:

"ek panchi ko pinjre me dala..
Jab udne ka time aya to pinjre se pyar ho gya!! "

We used to curse this college so much in beginning..and now we all love it! :)

I don’t know how..but I am kinda ok with leaving now..coz I know,I can't achieve more by staying more here…its time for changes..and we have to accept it,,embrace it with our arms wide open!

Enjoy this time to the fullest guys..this time is not gonna come back..
Resolve all fights..talk to your enemies, n make them friends again..coz you are gonna miss them the most!
Somebody once told me that the person with which you fight the most is the person you are attached to a lot,and unknowingly love a lot..!

So give away your harsh feelings and ego..its time to shake hands again and have a happy ending.. :)

It feels sad to think that we wont be able to bunk college and enjoy with friends like this anymore..
We wont have group of friends sitting beside us to share maggie or watch movies together..

We wont be having any more surprise bday parties having your big bunch of friends dancing crazily,giving you bday bumps and cake facials..

Everything will be restricted to phone calls and messages..
Starting from discussing everything in first few months,,and slowly ending up formally in years ,,saying 'hi, how are you!'

Time changes..people change..feelings change..but memories remain the same..!!

But we wont be alone..we with be family again now..may be we wont have much time to think about this..life will be really busy..
And most of us will be in arms of our life partners,,enjoying the second phase of our life..the mature phase..youth phase..and yes..the PROFFESIONAL PHASE….

Lets slow down your packing friends,,coz you dunno about the big devil called ''EXTENSION''!! :D :D

Lets hope to finish this on time..!
Good luck!!